It’s been nearly eight months since I’ve sat down and written here. And after lots of experiences, thinking (SO MANY THOUGHTS), and emotions these past few months I decided it was time to do some therapeutic writing again. I’ve had a lot on my mind this past year. You could say my Google Chrome browser has had a shit load of tabs open. 2019 is beat me up, made me cry tears of joy, and brought me right back down.
For those of you who have also had a year of ups and downs, holy shits and pure bliss you could say, I feel you. I’ve had some pretty low points this year. But also some of the best experiences. I’ve met some people that I hope there are in my life for a very long time. They are pretty incredible humans and I’m so grateful for the opportunity to have met them. People that I am certain came into my life for a reason. I needed them through some tough times. I truly don’t think I would’ve gotten through some rough months without a certain handful of people. You know who you are and for you, I am so thankful.
2019 was a wild damn ride, folks, and that’s putting it lightly. I still lived in Florida this time last year. I made the call to move back to Michigan, bought a house without seeing it in person, took a job I had no idea would have such an impact on me, worked in an industry that had already been a dream of mine, became part of something really special, (looking at you Lansing Ignite), lost said job, and now find myself waiting for a sign for my next adventure. I also found a few new passions, fell madly in love with soccer and learned so much about myself and what I’m capable of.
My anxiety likes to screw with me. It sometimes eats me up from the inside out and always tends to have the thinking of the worst-case scenario. However, I am super optimistic about what this next year and the next decade will bring. A fresh start, a clean slate, a whole new year of exciting anticipation. There’s so much potential. For the love of all that is good, I sure as hell hope it brings a man around.
I may be bruised and a tad beat up, but I’m certain that 2020 has some pretty epic shit in store for me. I know what magic I can make happen and I have every intention to do just that. I will be unapologetically authentic in everything I do, I’ll be patient (easier said than done), and continue to believe that indeed, everything happens for a reason, as cliche as it is.